Daring Crossroads: Inhabiting My Bimbo Identity

Crossroads can be tricky. What’s a bimbo to do when faced with difficult choices? The possibilities are endless for a bimbo in Second Life.

Second Life Choices

The way I interact with Second Life is different from most people. I think everyone approaches the virtual world in their own ways. With unique objectives. Most people log in to escape the real world for a while. That’s true for me too. Where I differ is that I spend most of my time online generating content for social media platforms.

This impacts every aspect of my Second Life experience. There are reasons for it that I won’t get into. I might like to be more social in-world. But things are the way they are. I take what I can get. And I’m very satisfied with the creative freedom being a Second Life influencer allows me.

Before I started blogging, I did what most people do in Second Life. I had hangouts. Social circles. A lot of guys pursued me and frankly I broke a lot of hearts. Never intentionally. But it happened with irritating regularity. That was one of the reasons I started blogging. My exes were piling up and I just couldn’t take it anymore!

I came to my first crossroads when I realized I wasn’t built for Second Life drama. Instead of being social, I focused on solo activities. I still have my fair share of drama. I’m still somehow breaking hearts. But it’s less intense now because I never allow anyone to get too invested in me.

Crossroads

Every so often, I reach crossroads. I look at what I’m doing in Second Life and I re-evaluate. Is it still satisfying? What can I do differently? Is it time to take a break? All the existentials.

We’re coming up on a year since my last big Second Life change. It’s hard to believe. If you’re reading this, you probably know that I was a Second Life escort. It could be a lot of fun. It could also be stressful. I’m not sure I was really cut out for it. I got fired twice in less than a year. That’s a pretty good indication that I wasn’t escort material.

Sometimes I say I was I was the worst girl in that establishment’s history. No one else, to my knowledge, has been fired twice. Darden doesn’t like it when I say that. But I think there’s some truth to it. Whether I was actually the worst or not is immaterial. I wasn’t the right fit. That much was apparent. Even more so with the benefit of hindsight.

That particular crossroads was easy in that it was imposed upon me. Figuring out what to do next was the challenge. Over the last year I have written about some of my attempts to replace that part of my Second Life experience. There have been many more that never got documented. There are things that are in the works right now that I’m not going to write about yet. Most of them will never happen. Second Life is paved with good intentions.

Branching Out

I reached my current crossroads late last year. Blogging was getting a little stale. I once again considered the possibility that it might be time for me to leave the virtual world. At least for a while. Instead, I got some new sponsors. As I’ve said before, Umino in particular presented me with some new challenges which took me to other platforms.

Writing this blog, making videos for YouTube and everything I am doing on Patreon have opened my eyes to a box I’d put myself in. When I make sponsored content, I am beholden to my sponsors. That means making the product the star. It means changing my appearance to fit whatever I’m selling. It can be a creative challenge. A puzzle I enjoy solving. It’s also limiting.

Once again, I stood at a crossroads. Leaning hard into bimbo stuff costs me sponsors. There’s no getting around that. A lot of designers won’t even consider me for their team. More and more, I’m okay with that. Making non-sponsored content has really re-invigorated me. I’m learning new skills and hopefully reaching new audiences. Or at least providing my existing audiences with something different.

What matters, even if no one watches, is that I am doing things that feel right to me. It’s the continuing journey of self-exploration. By focusing on these platforms where I am less restricted (in some ways), I’ve been able to let certain things fall be the wayside. I updated my look to more fully embody my bimbo identity. And it feels good!

I got to talking to a friend of mine about her idea for a bimbo project. The timing of the conversation lined up with my current crossroads. One day I got to spit balling ideas in Discord and I just couldn’t stop. All of these thoughts about bimbdom came spilling out. As I typed and types (and typed), I was thinking. I really need to channel this energy into everything else I do.

That really lit a spark in me. I’m still standing at a crossroads. Picking and choosing where to invest my time. I’m not making any radical changes and I don’t think I will. It’s more like course corrections. I know that whatever I do next, it’s going to be about embracing my bimbo identity. Letting myself enjoy everything that comes with it. And encouraging others to do so.

One of the beautiful things about bimbdom is it doesn’t require a lot of thought. When a bimbo comes to a crossroads, she can just bounce along. Or stand there looking cute. Maybe she hitches a ride or lets someone else tell her which way to go. But she doesn’t stress out about it. All roads lead to fun when you’re a bimbo.